The John Hughes Way

I was born in the late 80's, two years away from being a 90's baby. Not that it would have really made much a difference. Or maybe it would have, who knows. I grew up on classic rock, jazz, and classical music, all of which are really interconnected. My favorite band is Pink Floyd, I love loud music, and 80's movies are really my favorite type of movies, especially John Hughes movies. Seriously, who hasn't seen The Breakfast Club, Pretty In Pink, or even Sixteen Candles? His movies really got to the center of some serious adolescent problems. He didn't just make fun of them, which is definitely one way to go about growing up a young person in society. Laughing things off, ignoring the stupidity of others.. sometimes those techniques in life just don't work. His films really delved into the mind of how we work when we're trying to find our place in our life. he sad thing is no one will ever know until one day that place slaps you right in the face and says, "Here you are! Enjoy!" But.. does tht really ever happen? To some people it does, and they are the very lucky few. The rest of us are just trying to find some niche in life where we can be ourselves.

Anyway, my point is, some o my favorite movies of all time are from John Hughes.

For those of you who are from a younger generation than I am, which isn't saying much, I'm barely into my 20's, there is a new movie that really pays homage to John Hughes and his movie style. It came out this past summer. It's called Easy A. Emma Stone is the star of the film and I will say, she's quickly becoming one of my favorite talents on screen.

Easy A is a really amusing and amazing movie about life in high school, which again, is in fashionable John Hughes style. If you haven't seen it, I recommend it to everyone who has ever seen a John Hughes film and who desperately needs to be introduced to them. In my opinion, you'll be a better person for it. Become a part of the Brat Pack. Learn a little about life, real life. Although his movies do have happily ever afters, which doesn't always happen, they do teach us about the hardships of life. If you can't find what he's trying to say, you aren't open enough or being honest with yourself.

On a different note, I have New Years Eve and New Years Day off.. ooooooooh what shall I do?! Boots is going with her girls to a fantabulous club where you pay a ridiculous (though not so when you think about drink costs) amount of money to get in and for free drinks. My other best girl friend, let's call her Domogirl, has already flown to Canada to hang with a bunch of people she met at Blizzcon. Bear says he wants to kiss me at midnight, which I agree to of course. I've told him this and it was a realization for me when I did.. I've never been kissed at midnight on New Years before. It sort of blew my mind when I realized that, because I've been with guys on New Years who were at the time my boyfriend and I've never been kissed at that time. Maybe that's why it's never worked out.. Oh well, life goes on.

Oh man, do I ramble or what? Must get ready for work now. Tonight I work the Host stand in our Cafe. I did it the day after Christmas, boy was that a mess. My coworker said I actually did well for it being my first time, but I think otherwise. I feel like I barely survived. It was kind of nice because I was tipped out by the servers at the end of my shift, which I feel is a little unfair since I didn't you know.. SERVE any one, but that is apparently the way it's working now in the Cafe. It's nice, but like I said, I do't think it's fair. Bear said it made sense, since the dining experience begins with the Host, but I'm not really doing anything except keeping the rotation going. Oh well, must just be a mental block.

Speaking of mental blocks, the other night I was at dinner with Bear and Dreamer, and somehow we got onto the subject of how eating fish and sushi is ok, but eating things like duck liver, dolphin, quail, and other out of the ordinary animals is not. Why? We're all a part of the food chain. Maybe I'm just weird like that. I don't see where the line is drawn. It reminded me of an discussion Ber, myself, and a few others got into at a party about why a man shouldn't hit a woman. It truly baffles me.

Holidays

I've always liked the holidays. People laughing, smiling. The twinkling lights of decorated trees and houses. The smell of fresh baked goods. It all gives me a warm feeling inside that is incomparable to anything other than love. I have the greatest example of love in the world, my parents. High school sweethearts, married for 27 years, together for 30. The thought of it makes me smile.

This year for the holidays I'm going to experience something new. My brother is married and out of the house we both grew up in. My grandmother has moved out of the state. My other grandparents have moved two states away. I'm working a job where I'm going to have to work Christmas Eve and Day. Normally, Christmas Day is spent waking up and making coffee (though not for me, I despise coffee), watching a random Christmas movie, and opening gifts given to me by loved ones. Then it's off the Grandma's house for more gifts and food that any Italian restaurant would be jealous of. This year.. this year is going to be a little different.

My brother is spending the holidays with his in-laws. My Mom and Dad are going to visit my Mom's parents on Christmas Eve and then drive to my Grandmother's (who is my Dad's mom) for Christmas Day and taking the dogs with them. I will be left alone, with a beautiful tree that Bear, my Mom, and myself decorated. Wrapped gifts will shimmer under the tree lights. I'll wake up to an empty house, shower, eat, and get ready for work. I'll work and come home, exhausted. What to do when I do come home? Only the day will tell.

New experiences are always around the corner. I just hope I'm ready for them.

Is There A Reset Button?

It's been well over a month since I last wrote. Shame on me, but what can you do? It restarts now.

I've had friend issues, but those are being resolved. I worry a little too much sometimes, but how can you not worry about those that you love? I just need to learn to be patient. I've often been told that I have pateince that no one could possess, but when it comes to knowing things about those I love, I'm so freaking impatient that I worry myself into a tizzy. But, I love them and that's all that matters in the end. They'll come to me when they're ready about whatever is on their mind, and that's pretty much what's happened. I'm just glad that I could connect with two great friends towards the end of a year in which I have gone through a roller coaster of emotional turmoil and happiness. It's been one hell of a ride and it isn't over.

I've gotten much acclaim from my managers and crew at work. I've been taught more and slowly given more responsibility. Recently I've been moved into the crew scheduling team at work. Hopefully I can help out. Learning more about the business, I realized how screwed up the business really is. Honestly, there are times where I know we are understaffed, but if the crew would just pick up the pace and band together, we could get through the hard times that are coming up. If the past is any indicator, we CAN do it. The crew just doesn't want to. They would rather moan and complain than just suck it up and do the best they can. I've seen what happens when everyone steps up and does what they're supposed to do. It truly is amazing, but sadly it is a rare occurrence.

Oh well. Is what it is.

Many things are happening right now. Whether they play out for good or for ill, only time will tell. At least I have the love and support of those around me. Even if the worst should happen in my situation, I have the constant reassurance that things will turn out right in the end, however bleak it may look at this moment.