Just lately it's been.. distant. And I know I've felt it.
I was texting with her last night and today trying to see if she could come to a board game night I'e orchestrated with Bear. There's going to be lots of family and friends there, more than I had anticipated. That's thanks to Bear. It's sure to be a memorable night. Just wish I wasn't waiting on my camera being shipped for repair right now.
I found out this morning that she can't go because she had to stay home with her younger brother and sister for the night. With the way I had been feeling and the way she worded her response, I knew something was wrong. I asked her if she was mad at me, for whatever reason. If I was wrong I wanted her to tell me. She didn't reply for about two hours, but she was at work so I didn't expect her to answer right away. When she did reply. she said that she was annoyed with me, but didn't say for what reason, so I told her to text me later if she wanted to talk about it.
Generally I'm a nice and happy person. I try my best for my friends and family. Sometimes I try my best for myself. But it seems like it's never enough and I just can't do anything right.
Once again, for the umpteenth time this year, I feel inadequate.
Losing one friend who is like a sister to me is one time too many in a lifetime, I don't think I can handle another one.
1 comments:
Sorry to hear that you're having problems with friends, unfortunately I know all about that lately also, and the pain associated with it. I hope things work out, and you don't lose friend. You're an amazing person, and you don't deserve to feel the pain that comes with losing a friend. If you ever need anyone to listen, I'm here. I'll keep my fingers crossed that everything works out. *hugs*
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